Monstro

For years I blamed Leviathan
For my unhappiness
(being in the belly thereof)
Then after the old whale died
Turns out I’m still sad.

Funny thing is:
Levi,
Despite being the world’s largest mammal
Wuz the closest thing I ever got
To any kind of father figure.

O, there were plenty of foxes & crickets
& old men with squeeze boxes,
But no anthropomorphized being
Ever made me feel like a real boy
Quite like the sea creature.

He wuz who I went to
First time my clockwork heart
Got broken–
He the pater proxy who held my hand
When the Blue Fairy
Wuz being such a bitch–
His the words
That talked me thru
Such a wooden adolescence.

Only later did we grow apart
When it came my time to kill him
(metaphorically speaking, natch)
In that so-called Rite o’ Passage
Wherein I ascend & he recedes–

Thus he retched me out upon the shore
A fullgrown man forevermore
Nevermore another star
To wish a stupid wish
Full longing for the time I spent
In that accursed fish.